I am celebrating my original birthday. I was born on the 17th of May. I am 35 years old. It’s trippy. I don’t feel 35 but I do feel older. This morning when I woke up I felt lighter and aware that I am an official adult. I know that I’ve been a legal adult since age 21 but this birthday I feel like one. All grown up, or as grown up as I ever wish to be. I’ve had a brilliant day. I went to breakfast with my girlfriend, I did my shot, I rode two trains to get to my Aunt and Uncle’s house and it’s been all good. I was able to read 3 Chapters for one of my classes. Yay for me getting homework done! My gf and Aunt and Uncle met for the first time today and it went well. We all have Dr. Who in common so that’s a great icebreaker I was behind 4 episodes because I’ve been so busy with school. We watched them all tonight. Everyone has gone to bed. I have a couple quizzes to take before I turn in. I’m happy. A little tipsy from the wine I had at dinner. I feel good. A little tired. Ready for the new year to come. Happy Birthday me!
I have been sick/unwell since Monday night. I started feeling a bit better on Thursday and rested much of Friday. Tonight I don’t feel well at all. My mood is down. I feel depressed. I have a lot of homework and only 3 weeks left of school. My girlfriend and I had a fight? today. I don’t know if fight is the right word, nor is disagreement. There was no yelling but we both said we were frustrated and stood in silence (not a heated silence but a hurt and tired silence) with each other for over 10 minutes before I decided to go home. The matter (money) was discussed and resolved but it seems sort of vague to me, maybe in a couple days, I’ll understand it more. I told her I hadn’t been sleeping well and I hadn’t had any food in about 20 hours! None! and so I needed to sleep and get something to eat and I didn’t want to say anything that I didn’t really want to say. I told her maybe we should give it a few days. I need to take care of myself, get healthy, and I need to focus on school but now I have this dull ache in my heart and confusion in my mind and mild annoyance and weariness in my emotional body.
I was looking at websites to help me feel better. I am drinking tea with honey and ginseng and lemon now. I am in bed. I am in prayer. I found one I like that I want to share:
I wish everyone well.
Happy Saturday night!