Whoever I’m with in future will be responsible for their mental health. I am responsible for my mental health. It’s an everyday thing. It’s challenging work. Today I recognize and give myself credit for all I do and how far I’ve come.
Someone diagnosed me with a mental illness (Bipolar 1) in late April 2004 at age 25. I was hospitalized. To say my entire world shifted drastically feels like a huge understatement. From my perspective, it was a spiritual emergence that turned into an emergency. I’ll be writing more about this experience in future. From my doctors’ perspectives (western medicine) it was a psychotic episode with spiritual delusions. Neither are wrong assessments. Both are true. And it took a long, long time to reconcile my thoughts on the matter.
Why is mental health on my mind right now? It’s relationship time. I’m in a space/time in my life where I am feeling the desire to partner up. I’ve had this feeling for a while now. Probably for the past 9 months. I don’t know how to describe it other than I feel and know it’s time. From my life pattern so far, I have long gaps in between relationships. It’s been a little over 5 years since my last one, which lasted about 2 years. Before that, I had been solo for 7 years. So yeh, free spirit that I am, I’m choosing carefully who I partner with.
I know many people who are living with mental illness, whether diagnosed or not. I know people who are coupled, where one or both partners are navigating mental illness/mental health. I witness how it affects their union. I listen, observe, and learn from them. I am grateful for the modeling. At some time, I didn’t think I could be with someone who had a mental health diagnosis because I didn’t think I’d be able to deal with theirs and mine. Now I know that I can, with the condition that they are committed to their health, as I am to mine. We will be supportive of one another no doubt. The intention and effort is what matters because there will be good days and challenging days. As individuals, the commitment to self-care/self-love, will be the foundation of our healthy relationship. And that’s what’s up.
A dream becoming true:
A dedicated partner in a fun purpose-filled relationship. Creativity, business/entrepreneurship, home, family, travel, community service, philanthropy are some of what I’m interested in. I’m sure the person I’ll be with has similar desires/needs/hopes/wishes, along with others I am psyched to learn about.
Thanks for reading.
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Ta for now.