No Power Art-8.21-23.19

Some recent pieces.

Crayons. Digital Art via iPad apps, Sketches and ShadowDraw. Graphite pencil in sketchbook.

Day 2 with no electricity. (Left) Crayon #1 made in the dark, randomly picking 2 colors. (Right) Crayon #2 made while using a flashlight for illumination.

Crayon #2-Classic B&W filter

Crayon #2 Original

Sketch #1-Sketches App iPad_Tayasui.com

Sketch #2-Sketches App iPad_Tayasui.com

Playing/Practicing with ShadowDraw App on iPad

3 from my sketchbook (55s)

Gratitude-August (16-19)

Gratitude:
-The Library and Librarians. The system and the noble profession.

-The ability to read. Thanks, mom, Mrs. Thompson (my kindergarten teacher), and me.

-Ideas. A Plethora.

-Pages and pages, screens, voice recordings, thousands of words. A very productive weekend.

-The panic attack from earlier not lasting longer than it did. I was able to calm down but it took about an hour with assistance.
This was the second one this year. Technically, the second in 5 weeks.
Housing insecurity. The fear, shame, guilt is overwhelming sometimes.
Just gotta keep on keeping on. Doing my best, which I am. What is there to be afraid of? What haven’t I survived? I ask myself. Temporary is what I tell myself. Grateful for this time and all the privileges I have is what I say/know/ believe/feel.

-Learning to trust and listen to myself and adjust in my way/time. Living the rhythm of my nature. Self-correction feels so much better than the crippling effects of internalizing criticism/perceived criticism from loved ones. Confidence is a result .  In many ways, I am a slow learner, but when I get it, I got it! 😊

-Physical Therapy evaluation was on Friday. It’s been months of insurance issues to get to this point but “Dear God, I’m here. I’m here.” 🙃  Starting this week, for the next 6 weeks I’ll have physical therapy.  My left leg muscles have atrophied. It’s two weeks shy of a year since a car hit me while I was walking across the street in a crosswalk with a non-attentive crossing guard nearby. The knee locks and buckles whenever it wants. But I’m feeling hopeful now that with the exercises and therapy I’ll be good.

The Kids Are Alright by Chloe x Halle

-Art. Creativity. Painting.

Transcript: Evan (off-screen): Okay, so, these are my works in progress. It’s Friday, August 16, 2019. I’ve been painting for a couple of hours. I re-watched Season 1 of Derry Girls. It’s been playing in the background. Season 2 just started. So it’s time for a break or time to end for tonight and..(on-screen) yay!

Gratitude-November (17)

Gratitude:

-Email & the means to text. No need for phone calls today.

-Went through things and threw stuff away. Been putting it off and things were piling up.

-Tea. Peach and Lemon today.

-Sleep. I slept at least 10 hours today. Non-consecutive but still! Must have needed it.

-Extended self massage.

-Emotional distance allowing a level/even/ cool head.

-40yrs6mo completed! 😮😁🤙🏾🖖🏾🙌🏾👏🏾👍🏾✌🏾

Feel free to share anything you’re grateful for in the comments below 🙂

Ta

Gratitude-November (8)

Gratitude:
-For crayons, coloring, and creation.
-For seeking fairness and balance in a relationship extending to all aspects of my life.
-For the awareness of the need to release expectations in regards to myself.
-For recognition of high standards I set for myself and how that bleeds into other aspects and relationships in my life.
-For correction and admitting mistakes.
-For the piano.
-For letting all that doesn’t serve my highest good go.
-For choosing love and allowing the energy and flow of love to be a measurement for the decisions I make here on out.
-For accepting that I’ll slip up but ultimately choose love again and again and again..
-For J. For Moon, for insight/friendship.
-For T for lessons learned.
-For good food choices today.

Feel free to share anything you’re grateful for in the comments below 🙂

Ta

Gratitude-November (3)

Gratitude:
-sweet potato pie and chicken sausage
-sleep
-aloneness. When I thought and wrote the word I thought of it as acceptance of the lone state of existence. Like everyone is alone but we are alone together. Then I did a search and this came up. I really dig it. I think about love all the time. Love is my favorite topic. 1st Corinthians 13 is one of my favorite parts of a book ever.
-for free association drawing and writing
-T (shot) and T. the person.
-catching up with a couple of folk via chat
-my aunt and her laughter. Her laugh is one of my most favorite sounds on the planet.
-myself for being my self. I’m so funny and so serious/unsubtle, sometimes clueless but always honest. As honest with others as I am with myself that is. Sometimes there’s a delay. Honoring where I’m at. Releasing the impossibly high standards I’ve set for myself. Being more realistic. Realizing I didn’t have to take my chemicals seriously today. Just being aware was/is enough. Setting boundaries. The ability to communicate my thoughts, feelings, ideas. Self-acceptance.
-creativity
-organization
-Crystal’s Bluetooth working again.
-the sound of Danny’s shoot em up video game. It’s perfect background noise today.
-my ipad min 4 and kindle voyager. So grateful to have both.
-cleanliness
-agua
-oils. Jojoba and Coconut
-imessage and chomp texting app
-youtube videos for tarot and astrology. In particular today, the timeless readings.
-feeling safe, loved, and an overall sense of well being.

Be_In_Your_Own_Skin

Feel free to share anything you’re grateful for in the comments below 🙂

Ta