Lawless and Uncivilized

It’s over. It’s been over. During the last week of January 2017 it became clear that we are a lawless nation. Law is a wispy ghost. So..maybe not over completely but hanging by a thin, near invisible thread, alive in the imagination of our collective.

We are not all equal under the law. This we know. Our Commander in Chief(45) has broken laws. The list is long. Will he and his administration be held accountable? We know many of us will pay with our lives.
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I’ve said this before: Some of us live in a police state. This has been true for years. And this way of life has affected my mind. Which is understandable. But to pretend that things happening in our country (the U.S.) are not as dire as they are is a state of mind that I can barely fathom.
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I am not numb, nor do I feel indifferent. I truly feel a will and need to keep living, to keep moving forward. Survivors survive.

I have chosen to keep creating (art). To keep learning. To put as much joy and goodness in the world as possible. To walk the earth spreading love and light. Period. Recently, it’s been challenging. But we all have our parts. I am grateful for mine.
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At the same time, I do feel resigned. I feel sad and mad for the people who think they are safe and that this won’t touch them directly. At times I feel anguish for their (unconscious) anguish. I know they are afraid because I feel it. I know it because they reek of it. I know it because I see it. I am familiar with fear. I grew up with fear. We were introduced in my mother’s womb. I know fear by heart.
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I feel for us who have been and will be betrayed. In times like these, this is what people do, for their “safety”, for food, for medicine, for shelter. Human beings being human. People, people you know, maybe you, will literally lose their minds and some of us will remind one another that losing your mind is not the worst thing that can happen. We will be reminded that we can live through this and rebuild. Yes we can. It may take time. Creation does.
I feel hopeful we will create a civilization worthy of the word.
Humane and just.