Gratitude-March (7)


-Supportive and encouraging friends/family. Many good messages today.

-Me.  I amazed myself today. I reached out to a director I admire about mentorship. He got back to me pretty much right away. He’s from the UK and I’m in the US. He said that informal shadowing doesn’t really happen anymore due to insurance and budget things. There is more of a formal system there now. I thanked him and will now check out things here in the US. I’m in LA.
I feel so HAPPY and PROUD of myself for doing this.  I’ve wanted to since last August. I was just scared and insecure. Now I don’t have to be. Weight lifted. *does a little happy dance*

-My good fortune
-Russian Doll. I watched it again over the past couple of days. It was even better. I just really love(d) it.
-Spiderman – Into The Spiderverse! ❤
-Clean underwear. Clean socks
-My two feet.
-My left knee is feeling a little better than yesterday. Less pain.
-Food benefits
-The ability to sit with frustration, accept it, and choose another vibration. Joy.

A goal:  Shadow a professional director of a web/tv series from pre-production of an episode through completion.

A goal: To find a Director willing to be a mentor to me.

A goal: To work/earn a livable wage as a Director for film, tv, web, video games, ar/vr.

I’ve been directing one-act plays since I age 16. I’ve wanted to be a director since age 13. Being a director is a childhood dream that I began to pursue again in 2015 at age 37. Never too late!

The past 3+years I’ve learned a lot, made some short films/videos, had some setbacks but always moving forward. Steady. To be able to do this work I enjoy, that I’m absolutely designed for, and get paid for it, is where it’s at.  Wish me luck!

What sparks Joy in you?
What are you Grateful for?




Gratitude-October (14)

-For Jessica. Great visit. Perfect mediator. Lovingly effortlessly holding space. Friendship.
-For Moon. Clearing the air more. Understanding.

-For myself for being a good communicator. For passing through my frustration and tears, and in the release, feeling peace. Like complete peace through my body/energy field. Lovely. I had realizations about why I was hit by that car. I’ve been asking and asking why? It was definitely about slowing down. To be mindful. To be careful with my steps. To look around. To appreciate my health. The body. Time. Healing. Today though, today I had the realization that it’s changed my life and day to day for a reason. It was like a reset/update.
Even though I felt like things were improving in my life, (they were), some of my patterns of living weren’t serving me any longer. Because I immediately wanted to get better/heal as fast as possible, I started eating better. Asking my body what it needed. Paying attention to how I felt after I ate. Drinking more water, eating vegetables daily, no more dairy, cut back on sugar. A couple of weeks ago I stopped eating candy, donuts. I stopped eating chocolate. I still have a sweet tooth so I did buy a small sock-it-to-me cake but I ate it over the course of days not in a single night. Today I got these cinnamon sliced loaf cakes. But again, I didn’t eat them all. This week I’ll be prioritizing water intake/hydration. But yeh. I can see clearly how much diet has changed because I wanted to heal and be able to walk around, hike down the trail at the Observatory, and just wander around. So what I’m thinking is that it’s not the time to wander so much. It’s time to sit down, be mindful, and do the work I know to do to better my life/life situation. So yeh, I’m thankful for the insight and the review of recent events.

-For art. Practicing art.
-For a roof over my head.
-For letting go of past attitudes and experiences that don’t serve anything anymore. Just letting things go, you know?
-For Tani for helping me see more clearly. My vision is like new. Fresh eyes.
-For Jess for making “I love you” so easy to express verbally. I’m much happier for it.
-Archive of Our Own and all the writers who contribute.
-Life itself. Now.


For those in need.

Feel free to share anything you’re grateful for in the comments below 🙂