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-My friend D’lo(ve)💛 was born on this day. He is a gifted human being loving spirit. When we were 18 he inspired me to write my first performance piece. Shooketh my worldeth is a misunderstatement.

Today was about celebrating that fire joy heart light word playing truthtelling love flowing poet energy in which he was born, that energy of his essence that inspires me. Creative flow. Creative love. Creative Friendship. I published/shared a lot, wrote, and recorded today. In honor. Happy Birthday, D,LO! 💞

-clean clothes

-queer love stories

-lovers. People who love.

-a new step by new step

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-Friendship. Friendship is a gift, an offering of love. Yesterday I was sad,hurt, upset about the sudden loss of a potential romantic something. Today I recognize the gift being presented.

-writing. I couldn’t have gotten to that thought or way forward so fast if not for writing it out. Various outlets of expression, snippets, recordings, poems, musings, helped me get to the heart of the matter.

-sleep. I slept on and off for close to 12 hours.

-chocolate cake


-the fandoms I’m a part of 😁

-lemon pepper tuna

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-Moonlight. The beauty that this film is. I haven’t seen it since I saw it in the theater. Felt like watching it this morning. When I watched it the first time I was ii. Chiron. Now I’m also iii. Black.

-Endings/beginnings. In the midst of letting someone/something go that felt like a good thing and was a good thing but now it’s a no thing. Sometimes potential good things become temporary sad things.

-Tears. The slow constant silent warm ones.

-Pooh bear, soft blankets, quiet.

-A friend sending me a message this morning saying “You are SO loved. Let me know if you’re free anytime next week.”

-Reading it at the exact same time the person I’m letting go of is messaging me. Decided to do this gratitude entry right then. Before checking those messages (autocorrect changed it to “mess”. Haha Oh lawd!) that were originally going to be a call, set up last night for 11a. 30 min ago.

-Reminder and reinforcement of letting go, staying open, harmonious relationships of giving and receiving, fellowship, success, the constant flow of yin-yang, the circle of life. No endings without new beginnings.

-Clear intent. Clear intentional communication.

-My sweet, beautiful, brave, heart.

-Folks doing what’s right for themselves. There are no wrong choices. Just choices.

-The promise of a long nap after this.

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-For my friend for driving to LA to see me for Thanksgiving. We went to a movie,(Knives Out was thoroughly entertaining), and caught up on things. I only almost cried only once. Surprised myself.

-For apple pie and sushi.

-For Supercorp.

-For socks. I’m thoroughly enjoying my new socks. Today I wore pink ones and baby blue ones.

-For shorts and flip flops. My traditional southern California rain gear.

-For painting. Here’s one of the ones I was playing with today.

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-social media connectivity
Melissa Benoist for sharing her story of intimate partner violence. It was so brave and powerful to watch and will help so many people. So proud of her.
-friendship. I’m so fortunate for the friends in my life.
-Apple pie. My roommate brought a pie home to share with me 🙂 I’m so dang happy we talked on Saturday. Geez. Not just for the apple pie haha but for the quasi-peace in the apartment. There’s slight awkwardness but good efforts all around overall.
-Life. As cheesy as it may seem, I’m grateful for being alive and having the opportunities to love and be loved and learn more about how to love and be loved. All that matters to me. Everything else stems from those.
-My  iPad Mini and kindle voyage which are my favorite devices. I’ve had them for 3+ years and still enjoy them nearly every day.
-The couch I sleep on in my friend’s apartment. I’ve been so super tired the last few days and I’m just grateful that I have a warm comfy spot to sleep/rest/be.