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I Say, I ∞26

People mistake kindness for weakness. Generosity and humaneness are interpreted as dependency, impracticality, mistrusted. I am one of many who has chosen a path to develop, learn, practice, master, unconditional loving and compassion. This is a path I walk. A part of who I am.

People misunderstand where I’m coming from. People misunderstand me. I’ve never been able to express this satisfactorily until now.

I won’t be less of myself for anyone else. I am my whole self. When I began to transition I didn’t know if I could live in this world and be myself. I’d always felt queer. Queer beyond gender/sexuality.  A Love Mutant. A mutation of love. After I started medical transition, I stopped feeling so queer.  I realized I could never be less than who I was. My entire life has been about being able to live and embody this whole love. I stand in the strength of my wholeness, Lion-Hearted and Light-Hearted I live in this always in motion yin-yang-wholeness.

The Gifts of Heart-Love, Clarity, Self Trust

My heart just opened up more. I just felt this release/acknowledgment of just HOW MUCH I had given my power away. The power over my thoughts of myself and what I should do, in life, in vocation, in love. These internalized thoughts and judgments at some points heavily guided my steps and actions.

I’ve been exploring this issue devotedly the past couple of years but this year, the past 6-8 weeks in particular, I’ve gained more clarity and self-trust, which are some of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received. I am very fortunate.

Ultimately, this is about self-love, which closely relates to unconditional love, which for me is the path I chose in my early 20s, the exploration of Agape Love.

I’ve lived an INCREDIBLE LIFE.

The heart opening up just now started with a terrible ache that made me tear up for myself. Myself from approximately 4 weeks until birth, to the person I am today, of approximately 40 years 364 days.

From survival, pain, confusion, fear, to absolute inner security has been a beautiful thing to experience and witness. This nownext phase is 🥰😮🎊💝 🌈🙌🏾 Any new way,
Happy Birthday Eve, to me 💜
Happy Thursday evening to All 🌈💞

Appreciation-(April 19)

I appreciate my friends, J and Cristina who helped me much this early afternoon. I was spinning! I am emotionally balanced now.
I appreciate Danny for sharing with me, as well as teaching me to mind my own energetic business. Gah!
I appreciate the energy of Libra, balance, justice, love, relationships.
I appreciate myself for all that I am.
I appreciate the abundance and flux of creativity and love flow and letting go.
I appreciate all of you who are reading these words.
Bless. Ta.